Box from Iraq

Today I received Michael's foot locker from Iraq. Which thankfully it is starting to make all this real. He is coming home soon! This month actually! I can't believe it has already been a year since he left. Thank God he's coming home to me soon! I opened the box which he told me to go ahead and do. I just never though I was going to get so emotional. But he had his stuff in there an I knew that the stuff was just recently there with him and he out his blanket in there. Which I just stood there and held it for a long time with my eyes closed. Trying to remember how he felt and smelled. It's funny how you try to remember things and you realize that you forget some of the little things. But thankfully they all come back as soon as you are together again. I can't wait to feel him pressed up against me again. We don't even have to be doing anything just hugging and I'll be thrilled. I keep telling myself that I won't cry. But there is a part of me that thinks I will since I've tried really hard not to this whole entire time that he has been gone.

But when he's home I can put my guard down because he is finally home and I don't have to worry any more about him getting hit by an IED. Or anything else equally awful. But I am alittle weary because he has been gone for so long and things change alot in a year. I mean my feelings for him haven't.I love him more now than ever. But it seems alittle weird. I hope that this is normal. We have one more FRG meeting coming up on the 18th of this month and I am defiantly going. I want to know everything I can before he gets home. Well gotta go it's late and I'll write more later. Bye!