Gone Again

Well the children and I got up early and took Michael to the airport. He's flight was at 8:30am. To my pleasant surprise they allowed the children and I to accompany Michael all the way to the gate. It was a much better parting this time and I feel that being able to continue on with him to the gate allowed some of my anxiety to momentarily live. I will say that taking the children through security was an interesting experience. Not only did I have to check and empty my pockets The children and I had to remove our coats and shoes! Which even after this Gabriel still managed to cause the alarm to go off. Come to find out he was wearing a belt of all things. So after removing his belt and continuing on through, we had to put all of our shoes and coats back on. Which was fun with Lydia. But we made it to the gate on time and was able to sit with Michael for a few minutes before he had to board. The children handle it well and other than Gabriel asking how long he would be gone this time things went pretty well.

I called his mom on the way home to let her know I had dropped him off and he was on his way. It was only a little after 9am when we got home and I threw myself into cleaning. Like I always do. I couldn't stand the idea of his stuff being left out (clothes and stuff) So I began picking up. To no avail I broke down and cried alittle. But it was not as bad as last time since I know what to expect. I just pray to God he gets to come home in May and not June. But I can handle it if it has to be June. I love him so much and can't wait until we can be a family again (hopefully for awhile this time).

Michael and I have decided to have one more baby and I am very excited about this. We want to start trying as soon as he comes home since I will be pretty much done with my school and will be able to start working. I want to work full time up until the baby comes. So if it takes awhile then it will just allow us to have more money saved. Well I'm going to go, write later.