Slow Down

Michael and I have been wracking our brains to see what the Lord has planned. We both feel a strong urge pulling us toward him going active in the Army. He says he feels led to start small groups where ever it is we go. I'm all for this. I know he'll be a wonderful leader and I am excited about helping him.

But the thing is when I first got out of school I felt compelled to further my education and start a career. But Gabriel got sick and I felt lead to be a stay at home mom. Which is one of my most rewarding things I've ever done. But here lately I have this gut wrenching feeling that I'm supposed to be doing something. I wrote this off as concern in helping Michael. but as I prayed I felt the Lord tell me that I am to do something else.

I had a moment then when it was like, what are you talking about Lord? Michael needs me to help him with the whole going active, small group thing. It was like he was telling me to be patient. A few days later, (yesterday a matter of fact) My father called me, we got to talking and the next thing I know we are on the subject of me working. My father asked me if I ever thought about starting a career in the medical field? I was honest and said yes because I enjoy helping people.

Medical assistant. It just came to me while I was talking with my dad. I proceeded to ask him about what a medical assistant does. I got on the net and looked up some schools to find out what it entailed. As soon as I got off the net a lady called me from one of the schools and wanted to set up a meeting. Everything seems to be moving to fast. I mean What if this is only a distraction from us going active? What if this is someones way of keeping Michael from doing what he is supposed to do?

I can't focus on other things. What Michael is to do is very important. I'm mean planting this small groups and different Army bases is wonderful. What if this is trying to take from that? I don't know I'm praying hard and all I see in my head is Medical Assistant. What about Gabriel and Lydia. Yes Gabriel starts School in the coming fall but what about Lydia she won't even be 2 until next November. I don't want to put her in a day care all day. Help Lord, am I over reacting? What should I do?