March 6, 2008

Well I went to see Dr. Hanley my gastro specialist. He has informed me that our next step in finding out what is wrong with me is to have a colonoscopy. Yeah me! The idea I think is what is more disturbing to me than probably the whole thing. I don't know, ok I think the whole thing is stressing me out. Anyway I'm scheduled for the procedure on Thursday the 17th. 7 am, so at least the whole not eating I can get out of the way. I already can't eat at all the day before the procedure just clear liquids. Which they where kind enough to give me a list so I'll know what clear liquids I can have.

Next topic for now. Michael and I were able to talk today. Which is usually always lovely. Except if he's trying to quite dipping. I can't wait until he finally does because someone should only have to experience someone going through withdraws once. I have experienced Michael going through it definitely more than once. Each time is the same and I'm afraid to talk to him. I really hope he finally has enough will power to quiet this time. It would be a very good testament to the kids because he can show that no matter how hard something is with Prayer and perseverance you can over come anything.

I found out that last week two friends of Michael and mine where in an accident. Shawn Hayslette and Jason Caldwell. Both graduated from high school my freshmen year and Michael's junior year. They are both 26 years old. Shawn sustained severe head trauma, a broken collar bone, a broken left arm, ripped tendons in his left hand, and part of his right ear was cut off. Surgery was done to sew the ear portion back on. Two holes were drilled in his head where tubes were placed. Shawn is still unconscious, but has been responding to verbal communication to give the thumbs up sign. They said they may take out the head tubes this week. So hopefully when I'm able to get in touch with someone they will have already done this. Jason sustained a broken ankle, some skin abrasions and a slight concussion. Jason had a pin placed in his ankle this past Monday. He has already been discharged. Jason said he thought they hit some black ice which caused him to lose control of the car and slide over into the southbound lane hitting a bread truck head-on. I'm hoping they will both be back on their feet soon. I'm hoping I can get them to come to Michael's party when he gets back home.

Anyway the kids and I went to the library after dinner tonight. We went over into the children's part since Gabriel is starting to want to try and read. So we got him some of the beginner one books. He actually read one whole book with very little help from me. He did very good and thankfully didn't get mad. Lydia played with some of the other children there. We do need to work on her sharing but she's not around enough little kids her age. She's used to big kids and she kinda has watch them be rough and now she is starting to get that way too. I'm hoping as she gets bigger I can talk to her and she won't run off so bad. She's very bad about walking off. Anyway we then went to Hobby Lobby and I got some tote bags for the kids to decorate and we are going to use them as our library book bags. That way they will be able to pick out their own and put them in their own bags. Make them feel big and maybe get into it. I'm hoping they develop my love for books too. I mean they love anything their daddy does and I really want them to be able to enjoy something that I do. Ok, Lydia also shares my love for animals (all animals). I'm sure there's more at least I hope so. But books are my main thing. Well it's late I need to go now. Write more later!