Christmas

I can't believe Christmas is already gone but I am very happy about it this year. My Michael is scheduled for R&R on Jan. the 6th and I am dying to see him again! I can't wait and he is all I can think about. I haven't told the kids because sometimes the army changes things at the last minute and I don't want them to be upset if that happens. Better if it is a surprise so there is no disappointment. I don't have much to say but the kids got so much that I had to leave some stuff at my in-laws because I could not fit it all in my jeep. Big families what can I say?!

Johanna and Antonio continued

I wanted to add a picture of Adam and his family. It is alittle old but it's all I have right now.

I must say that I certainly do like Johanna. I could actually see use becoming close friends if they happen to live closer. I would very much like it if her and Adam and Antonio lived closer. But they are in WA and are not sure what the next step for their family will be. She is to be deployed in Sept. 15 months. Just two longer than Michael (I can not even begin to imagine what I would do to be away from my children for so long. ). Antonio is adorable. He looks just like Adam but you can see his mommy there too. I wonder how she is doing down with the Family? But again they will not be ill toward her for Adam. Antonio is so cute and I wanted to just pick him up and love all over him but I held myself back. I did pick him up when she went into the bathroom for a minute but he is bigger and starting to get out of that faze where you can hold him and cuddle with him.

Seeing how Lydia and Gabriel did with him made me want another baby even more. Gabriel is so good with babies and lulu is too but doesn't understand why he can not just get up and run with her. Typical stuff for a two year old. But by the time Michael and I have another one she will be bigger and understand better. I wasn't sure when I had the age gap between lulu and scooter but it seems to have worked out for the best. They get along very well, for brother and sister at least.

I am looking forward to seeing Johanna , Antonio and Adam again at Christmas, I just wish it was them and not everyone else. But you take what you can get and I will remain silent as ever. I think mother thinks I will be staying with them at some point but I hate to disappoint her, but the children and I will be staying with Michael's mom but will go over to visit. She has the room and I will endue no verbal abuse over there. It will hopefully prevent some of the abuse I will receive from my family if I stay at Michael's moms as well. I can not wait until Michael comes home so that we may be able to start planning our lives together. I pray Adam and Johanna will continue to do well and learn to agree and live well. There young and have not fully developed the WE complex instead of the ME complex that they have right now. Only time will tell if they get there. Like She wouldn't mind one more child but Adam does not. It's things like that. I will not tell anyone. I will remain silent at Christmas and watch how things unfold. Especially with a new member of the family there, I just wish Michael was her with us for this. Next year though, next year. Maybe we will have a new addition by then or we will be expecting one then. Or a house who knows. As long as Michael is here that is all that matters. Pray to God this happens, Amen!

Johanna and Antonio

Today I am going to the airport to pick-up my sister-in-law and nephew. I have yet to meet or talk to her and am a little nervous. I hope that she likes me but if not then she will fit along with the rest of the family. I am hoping though that maybe she will talk with me and I will have someone. Poor thing though has no idea what Adam says about her to the family and her opinion is low with mom and the family. Of course mom defends Adam so if she upsets him then mom is for him. But I want to make my own opinion of her because Adam is in no way perfect. He can be very difficult and I have a feeling he maybe playing the sympathy card with the family and she maybe more victim. But who knows. I will of course write later about what happened and everything. She may not even really talk with me. I know I would be shy and have a hard time talking with someone I have never meet. Oh well, write later, bye!

Holiday spirit?

I am trying very hard not to get down and feel like the Grinch. It is very hard and I am missing Michael very much. Lydia becomes more and more talkative and will not say a few things to Michael on the phone. Today she was in the hall way pretending to be on the phone talking to her Dada. Even little things like this makes it more difficult. I bought some Christmas cards and have been filling them out tonight. Every year I send family and friends cards and I thought that if I continued this year it might help by bah humbug mood. Not really it made is worse because at first I was unsure of how to sign the cards. But I signed them like I always do. Michael may not be here but he is still my family and I signed his name for him. I am just so thankful that he will be home for R&R shortly after Christmas. This thought does make it alittle better. Still I will find it hard not to cry or be alittle upset at Christmas. Especially when going over to see his family. My side as well but for quiet different reasons I will probably be upset. But I have sworn that I will not say anything until after Michael leaves to go back over again. Then the next time something is said, I plan on saying something. I just don't want to ruin Christmas or be upset before I see my Michael again. Well enough for now, again later.

PT TEST

I can only say thank the Lord for Michael has passed his PT test. I am so proud of him. He has been having a hard time trying to pass this test and it seems like every time he attempts to pass it something happens. Like last time he threw-up right in the middle of it and had to stop. You know what even this time he had something wrong. His foot is bothering him and he is going to the Doctor about it tomorrow. He refused to go until after he passed this test. So thank fully he passed and now he can get his foot taken care of. He is so hard headed, but I love him.

I was also able to mail three boxes today to him. Well one is actually for Sgt. Kinney and one is for him to pass out the stuff that is in it but the one box is from me and the kids for Christmas. I still have one more box to mail but I am going to wait until after the 15th. I have to make a trip down to KY this weekend for the FRG Holiday party and am worried about money. So next paycheck I will mail it. The kids are doing fine. Gabriel thankfully has not had any problems with school and has remained health except for a cold. Lydia is doing well talking more and more everyday and between her and Gabriel I am unable to get in a word otherwise. Michael is not going to know what to think when he comes home for R&R.

My school is going well. I passed my last class with an A and am enjoying this class more than I thought I would. It is pharmacology. Which isn't so bad except for all of the abbreviations I have to learn and at least the 50 most common prescription drugs prescribed at a Doctors office. The only problem with this is every drug has more than one name. There is the generic name and the Trade name. If anyone is wondering always try and get the generic name because the Trade name cost more but there is no difference between them. Like people who shop for clothes at Wal-mart or Good will compared to say Macy's or another expensive store. You are just buying the name. So always ask the Doctor if he can prescribe the generic drug instead. It will always save you some money. There is no difference between the potency of the drug. They have to have the same strength. See the generic drug is the drug's real name. The one it was developed with. While the trade name one more commonly used is the brand or propriety name. I hope this info helps someone out there. Well I need to go Gabriel's almost home from school and I need to get Lulu up from nap. Write more later. BYE!

At an impass?

I'm not sure if that is the appropriate title or not. But Michael and I are at a very crucially junction in our family's life apparently. Michael from the get go has been saying that he wants to go active. But after some quiet reflection on his part he is unsure if this is the best course for our family. We both want another baby but are unsure as well as how soon we should pursue this. It's not a matter of if, but when. I guess the Lord shows us what we need to know at a time and does not reville everything like we would like him too. So please anyone who reads this, please pray that the Lord will revile his next step for our family. What we should do. Thank you!