Well thank the Lord today is the last day of January. I normally don't like time to pass by this fast but when you are separated from a loved one you can't help but wish time to go by faster so that you will once again be reunited together again. I know it has only been a little over a week since he left again but already I have that longing back. I just pray that the Lord will allow us to be together for quite some time before Michael is sent away somewhere again. I would like it if he never is but I remain practical. He is in the Army, things happen. Plus this world will never see peace until the day the Lord comes (His will be done).
Well I was bored last night and I called a realator who is ex Army and now deals mainly with veterans and Va home loans. Michael and I have decided that when the time comes for us to get a home this is the guy we are going to use. He also let me know that when Michael comes home he will be able to help Michael get a AGR slot. Isn't that wonderful! But unfortunatley it will more than likely not be with a Combat Engineer unit and he will have to find another MOS. They talked about maybe getting him into a recruter job but Michael would only do that for a short time. They also mentioned a drill instructor unit. But those guys drill for two years and then have to go over seas for at least 6 months to stay current. We were not really happy about that either. If he has to go over again we would rather he do what he is doing now since nothing (Thank the Lord) has happened. Plus he is comfortable doing what he is doing and that is very important in a place like that.
The children and I are doing very well. I have another appointment with the gastro doctor on the 5th and I'm not sure what there next course of action will be. But I have a feeling they will want me to take a prgnancy test and I'm not willing to do that just yet because I'm afraid it will tell me that I am not and I don't want to deal with that just yet. I'm still praying that the Lord has allowed me to become pregnant. But I do know that, if I am not then there is a reason and I must except this. I just hate that I have never been regular and it takes me sometime. Plus I read that as the years go by and having more children can cause it to become difficult for some women. But I know I can get pregnant it just may mean that I'll have to take that medicine that my gyno told me that will help me ovulate normally. I just really didn't want to take any medicine. (I don't like to take any medicine) But I don't want the age gape between this next one and Lydia to get any larger than her's and Gabriel's is. But again the Lord always has a reason though we may not know why he does and we have to trust him and know that he does only what is best for use even if we don't understand. I have babbled enough for now. I'll write again later.
Thursday, January 31, 2008
Monday, January 28, 2008
What do I want?
Michael made a comment while he was home that I have not been able to shake. He made the point of saying that I have formed myself around whatever everyone else wanted or expected of me and that I really don't know who I am. I have thought about this every night. Everyday! You know what, he's right. Who am I? What am I doing? What makes me happy? I have been trying to figure this out and I realize that I am over thinking this and I need to go to the basics and just think about the things that make me happy and go from there.
So, I love to read. Everyone knows that. I could probably live in a library if someone would let me. I would love to have a library of my own, in my own home. I love Michael! (Duh) I love me children and I honestly want more. I love kids I love being around them. Whenever we go to visit family I automatically gravitate toward wherever the children are. At Christmas I watched the twins along with my own to allow Randy to go home and wrap presents. I used to watch children in my home in falmouth. I was dying to get my cousin Leslie's kids and Antonio. I love anything to do with medicine. I love watching all those TV medical shows. I have such a longing to go overseas to another country and help in whatever way I can. This is why I am going to be a medical assistant and later on become a nurse, so that I can do this. I guess if you want to say if I have a dream, this is my dream. I would actually entertain the thought of living in another country at least for a year. With my family, of course. I just have always wanted to know how other countries are. I mean the lord allowed for other cultures and I want to see them. I want to help.
I want a home yes and I would love to fill it with things of course. But those things are not important. I guess what I want most in the world is a Big Family. But in order to have this Michael and I need to be on the same page. I would need him to understand exactly what I am thinking and to feel the same way. Most people would say that two children are plenty. But I have a dream that I have never shared with anyone and I found that later on especially in High School whenever I began to day dream of this I stopped. But Michael and I have been through so much and I have opened up to him and we are to spend the rest of our lives together that I have finally felt safe enough to dream and picture a life with him.
I want four children. I can settle for three but I want four. I can't explain why but all I can say is that I feel it is right. I try to always pray about anything and everything. I would love to own a home someday. But it is not the most important thing. All that matters is God and family. I don't want to hold off our family for a home. Some people would feel that a home and me working needs to be establish before more children can come. But I want them while I am still very young. While Michael is young too. (I also have a female problem that makes getting pregnant take a little bit) We have a friend who is 28 and his only son just turned 1. I mean I'm 23 and have two. Michael and I will be very nice and young and can fully appreciate our kids and retire very young to enjoy our time.
I guess I just want to have the family I didn't have growing up. I want to have my kids and be involved in them as much as I can. I want to talk with them about everything and anything. I want them to know that they can talk to me about anything and not be afraid to talk to their father either. I know things won't be perfect but I just want to be the mother that Christ would have me be and the wife he would have me be also. I want Michael and I to start our own family and I feel that moving here to Indiana was the best chose for our family. Sometimes I find myself want to move back to KY. Not back were we where, but in the northern part. I mean I like the area and it is nice but it's kinda like Florence, in a away.
I mean we needed to move here while Michael was deployed. (It has really helped me become more independent and self reliant.) But before we moved I was actually feeling like I was coming out of my shell when I joined the FRG. I love the FRG in FT Thomas. I feel horrible because I want to participate more than I am now, but I can't. I love the women and the guys and the area. I keep telling myself that Attebury will be the same. There will be other wives and we can move closer to it and I can participate more. But now Michael has changed his mind again and he wants to get a civilian job and go to school. Part of me feels that if he wanted to go to school I would have much rather he have gone first. A really big part of me wants to be a stay at home mom and a volunteer. I want to volunteer at the crisis pregnancy center here in Indianapolis and a volunteer with the FRG. Do things I can include the kids in and help them grow an appreciation for the military. But if I work I don't think I can do this. I mean with Michael gone I've realized how much being with the kids and helping them means. But I'm going to school and I think Michael is ok with me working part time.
I've always whined about how I wanted to work and get out of the house. But those few weekends when I went to the unit with Michael before he left I felt something I hadn't felt before. I felt like I was making a difference. I was doing something very important and the people liked me. They started to know who I was not by Michael's wife but by my name. I mean they were even accepting of when I brought the kids and I even tied Lydia to my back one day and still got alot of work done. I was just so.. so... happy, I felt fulfilled. I loved it. Every time I go to a meeting they need help with something and it's all I can do from raising my hands and saying I'll do it. Like after LEAH was in the accident and they needed someone to take over her job. I so wanted to sat yes, but I knew there was no way.
Maybe I'll feel different once I start my clinical and I get to working. I mean so far I am making good grades. Maybe when I get to the hands on part my feelings will change. I just want to move forward with our lives so bad that I feel like pulling my hair out. I just want Michael to make a decision and stick to it and be all that he can be. He is so smart and he can do anything that he wants. I mean he could have done an INTEL job the Army. He is that smart. I mean every women would love to be able to say hey my husband is in such and such in INTEL. I mean I just swelled up when he heard how high he scored and the recruiters reaction to his scores as well. I mean I love that he's an engineer and that he has pride in what he does but, he can do so much more, but I think he's afraid that people will expect to much from him. I mean to be honest he's never had to deal with that, because his family has never required anything major from him. I think this might have played a role in how our marriage was in the beginning. I kinda feel that I maybe the only person who has really ever expected anything from him major and wanted him to make major decisions. I don't know. That's just how I feel. I just feel like he beats himself up and he's afraid. Of what I'm not totally sure of. But he has such potential. I just hope that this time apart has really benefited him and helped him finally decide what he wants to do. I mean our relationship is awesome and I couldn't ask for more and not feel selfish. I love him so much.
I guess I have rambled on enough. I just kinda feel like I may be getting there and figuring things out. I feel like I can finally be honest and if an argument occurs then I hope not and we can discuss things and come to a mutual decision about everything. I'm going to go now. I actually feel alot better though. I hope if Michael reads this he understands. I love you Honey, I hope I didn't say too much to upset you. Talk later? Love Ya!
So, I love to read. Everyone knows that. I could probably live in a library if someone would let me. I would love to have a library of my own, in my own home. I love Michael! (Duh) I love me children and I honestly want more. I love kids I love being around them. Whenever we go to visit family I automatically gravitate toward wherever the children are. At Christmas I watched the twins along with my own to allow Randy to go home and wrap presents. I used to watch children in my home in falmouth. I was dying to get my cousin Leslie's kids and Antonio. I love anything to do with medicine. I love watching all those TV medical shows. I have such a longing to go overseas to another country and help in whatever way I can. This is why I am going to be a medical assistant and later on become a nurse, so that I can do this. I guess if you want to say if I have a dream, this is my dream. I would actually entertain the thought of living in another country at least for a year. With my family, of course. I just have always wanted to know how other countries are. I mean the lord allowed for other cultures and I want to see them. I want to help.
I want a home yes and I would love to fill it with things of course. But those things are not important. I guess what I want most in the world is a Big Family. But in order to have this Michael and I need to be on the same page. I would need him to understand exactly what I am thinking and to feel the same way. Most people would say that two children are plenty. But I have a dream that I have never shared with anyone and I found that later on especially in High School whenever I began to day dream of this I stopped. But Michael and I have been through so much and I have opened up to him and we are to spend the rest of our lives together that I have finally felt safe enough to dream and picture a life with him.
I want four children. I can settle for three but I want four. I can't explain why but all I can say is that I feel it is right. I try to always pray about anything and everything. I would love to own a home someday. But it is not the most important thing. All that matters is God and family. I don't want to hold off our family for a home. Some people would feel that a home and me working needs to be establish before more children can come. But I want them while I am still very young. While Michael is young too. (I also have a female problem that makes getting pregnant take a little bit) We have a friend who is 28 and his only son just turned 1. I mean I'm 23 and have two. Michael and I will be very nice and young and can fully appreciate our kids and retire very young to enjoy our time.
I guess I just want to have the family I didn't have growing up. I want to have my kids and be involved in them as much as I can. I want to talk with them about everything and anything. I want them to know that they can talk to me about anything and not be afraid to talk to their father either. I know things won't be perfect but I just want to be the mother that Christ would have me be and the wife he would have me be also. I want Michael and I to start our own family and I feel that moving here to Indiana was the best chose for our family. Sometimes I find myself want to move back to KY. Not back were we where, but in the northern part. I mean I like the area and it is nice but it's kinda like Florence, in a away.
I mean we needed to move here while Michael was deployed. (It has really helped me become more independent and self reliant.) But before we moved I was actually feeling like I was coming out of my shell when I joined the FRG. I love the FRG in FT Thomas. I feel horrible because I want to participate more than I am now, but I can't. I love the women and the guys and the area. I keep telling myself that Attebury will be the same. There will be other wives and we can move closer to it and I can participate more. But now Michael has changed his mind again and he wants to get a civilian job and go to school. Part of me feels that if he wanted to go to school I would have much rather he have gone first. A really big part of me wants to be a stay at home mom and a volunteer. I want to volunteer at the crisis pregnancy center here in Indianapolis and a volunteer with the FRG. Do things I can include the kids in and help them grow an appreciation for the military. But if I work I don't think I can do this. I mean with Michael gone I've realized how much being with the kids and helping them means. But I'm going to school and I think Michael is ok with me working part time.
I've always whined about how I wanted to work and get out of the house. But those few weekends when I went to the unit with Michael before he left I felt something I hadn't felt before. I felt like I was making a difference. I was doing something very important and the people liked me. They started to know who I was not by Michael's wife but by my name. I mean they were even accepting of when I brought the kids and I even tied Lydia to my back one day and still got alot of work done. I was just so.. so... happy, I felt fulfilled. I loved it. Every time I go to a meeting they need help with something and it's all I can do from raising my hands and saying I'll do it. Like after LEAH was in the accident and they needed someone to take over her job. I so wanted to sat yes, but I knew there was no way.
Maybe I'll feel different once I start my clinical and I get to working. I mean so far I am making good grades. Maybe when I get to the hands on part my feelings will change. I just want to move forward with our lives so bad that I feel like pulling my hair out. I just want Michael to make a decision and stick to it and be all that he can be. He is so smart and he can do anything that he wants. I mean he could have done an INTEL job the Army. He is that smart. I mean every women would love to be able to say hey my husband is in such and such in INTEL. I mean I just swelled up when he heard how high he scored and the recruiters reaction to his scores as well. I mean I love that he's an engineer and that he has pride in what he does but, he can do so much more, but I think he's afraid that people will expect to much from him. I mean to be honest he's never had to deal with that, because his family has never required anything major from him. I think this might have played a role in how our marriage was in the beginning. I kinda feel that I maybe the only person who has really ever expected anything from him major and wanted him to make major decisions. I don't know. That's just how I feel. I just feel like he beats himself up and he's afraid. Of what I'm not totally sure of. But he has such potential. I just hope that this time apart has really benefited him and helped him finally decide what he wants to do. I mean our relationship is awesome and I couldn't ask for more and not feel selfish. I love him so much.
I guess I have rambled on enough. I just kinda feel like I may be getting there and figuring things out. I feel like I can finally be honest and if an argument occurs then I hope not and we can discuss things and come to a mutual decision about everything. I'm going to go now. I actually feel alot better though. I hope if Michael reads this he understands. I love you Honey, I hope I didn't say too much to upset you. Talk later? Love Ya!
Math
I hate math! I have never done well in math and apparently, I still do not do well in math. I have already failed my first assignment and if something is not done I will end up failing this class. I will so cry if I fail this class. I don't want to get behind and have to repeat any of these classes. I have actually been doing really well and I have been so happy because these are the best grades I have gotten since middle school. I really want to do well and have Michael be proud of me. How can that happen if I end up failing a class. I'm so starting to get stressed out already. The peace sure didn't last long.
Sunday, January 27, 2008
Classes
So far from what I can tell this week will be somewhat an easy one since I have two classes to worry about instead of the normal one. But by it seeming easy this week makes me worry about what the other weeks will be like. I have always had an apprehension about how I will do when each class starts. I always feel like I will do poorly. But so far I have been proved wrong. Which is very nice. But I do still like even through my grades are high I feel like I have not learned or absorbed enough information to do my future job correctly. I just hope that when I go to do my clinical I will then learn what I need to do. I am a visual person so doing this online has been a challenge for me to remember what it is I need to. But I am hopeful that clinical will change my mind and out look on things.
Michael called me today after church and told me that he is doing well. He is still tired and still adjusting again to the time change and every thing. But he has fallen back into his routine and him and Weid are hanging out and going to the gym again. He has informed me that Sgt. Walker is doing alright besides having metal hanging out of his finger. But he said he should have it removed within a week or so and then will go through three weeks of physical therapy. But other than that he is doing well. The children are doing well too and we are back into our normal routine as well. It's funny how easy it was to go back to the way things were before Michael came home on leave. I am feeling alright and feel recharged from Michael's visit home as well. But I will start to feel the effects before he is home again. But that is later and not to worry about now. I pray for his safe return and still miss him terrible. I love him so nothing will ever change that. Well I have to go, I'm trying to plan a box for Michael and his friends. I'll write more later, bye.
Michael called me today after church and told me that he is doing well. He is still tired and still adjusting again to the time change and every thing. But he has fallen back into his routine and him and Weid are hanging out and going to the gym again. He has informed me that Sgt. Walker is doing alright besides having metal hanging out of his finger. But he said he should have it removed within a week or so and then will go through three weeks of physical therapy. But other than that he is doing well. The children are doing well too and we are back into our normal routine as well. It's funny how easy it was to go back to the way things were before Michael came home on leave. I am feeling alright and feel recharged from Michael's visit home as well. But I will start to feel the effects before he is home again. But that is later and not to worry about now. I pray for his safe return and still miss him terrible. I love him so nothing will ever change that. Well I have to go, I'm trying to plan a box for Michael and his friends. I'll write more later, bye.
Saturday, January 26, 2008
January 26, 2008
Well I was able to check out my overall grade for medical terminology and I have received a B for this class. Isn't this wonderful! So far I have made a A and two B's for my classes. I am however a little nervous because I actually have two classes to worry about this month. But I do not have to worry about going down to KY this month so this shouldn't be too much of a problem. I have a math class and one on blood borne pathogens. I'm very interested in the blood borne pathogens but not the math class. I have never been good in math and this is worse because I have to do good because I have to use this in my career field Evey day. I hope that I can pass with a good grade. I am actually going to get off now and preview the chapters for this coming up week. I'll write more later, bye!
Friday, January 25, 2008
January 25, 2008
Well I heard from Michael early this morning and he informed me that he should be leaving around 5pm his time to head back over to his home base. I have yet to hear from him but I'm sure they didn't give him any time to call. He probably was only able to unpack and get reacquainted with the guys. He'll probably call me either tomorrow or Sunday. No big deal. At least I know he is over there and safe right now. I had the pleasure of taking the kids with me to go and get our taxes started today. I only know how much federal we will be getting back. I don't know what we are getting back from KY and IN. He said this is because he has to fill out the KY and then figure out the IN. Don't matter. It is all getting deposited into our savings. We won't be doing anything with it until Michael gets home anyway. Right now I am just working on my school and taking car of the kids. I'll be able to pay off our medical bills and we will only owe money on our Jeep and my school. But my checks will be going to pay off my school; once I start working. Well gt to go write more later, bye.
Wednesday, January 23, 2008
Gone Again
Well the children and I got up early and took Michael to the airport. He's flight was at 8:30am. To my pleasant surprise they allowed the children and I to accompany Michael all the way to the gate. It was a much better parting this time and I feel that being able to continue on with him to the gate allowed some of my anxiety to momentarily live. I will say that taking the children through security was an interesting experience. Not only did I have to check and empty my pockets The children and I had to remove our coats and shoes! Which even after this Gabriel still managed to cause the alarm to go off. Come to find out he was wearing a belt of all things. So after removing his belt and continuing on through, we had to put all of our shoes and coats back on. Which was fun with Lydia. But we made it to the gate on time and was able to sit with Michael for a few minutes before he had to board. The children handle it well and other than Gabriel asking how long he would be gone this time things went pretty well.
I called his mom on the way home to let her know I had dropped him off and he was on his way. It was only a little after 9am when we got home and I threw myself into cleaning. Like I always do. I couldn't stand the idea of his stuff being left out (clothes and stuff) So I began picking up. To no avail I broke down and cried alittle. But it was not as bad as last time since I know what to expect. I just pray to God he gets to come home in May and not June. But I can handle it if it has to be June. I love him so much and can't wait until we can be a family again (hopefully for awhile this time).
Michael and I have decided to have one more baby and I am very excited about this. We want to start trying as soon as he comes home since I will be pretty much done with my school and will be able to start working. I want to work full time up until the baby comes. So if it takes awhile then it will just allow us to have more money saved. Well I'm going to go, write later.
I called his mom on the way home to let her know I had dropped him off and he was on his way. It was only a little after 9am when we got home and I threw myself into cleaning. Like I always do. I couldn't stand the idea of his stuff being left out (clothes and stuff) So I began picking up. To no avail I broke down and cried alittle. But it was not as bad as last time since I know what to expect. I just pray to God he gets to come home in May and not June. But I can handle it if it has to be June. I love him so much and can't wait until we can be a family again (hopefully for awhile this time).
Michael and I have decided to have one more baby and I am very excited about this. We want to start trying as soon as he comes home since I will be pretty much done with my school and will be able to start working. I want to work full time up until the baby comes. So if it takes awhile then it will just allow us to have more money saved. Well I'm going to go, write later.
Tuesday, January 22, 2008
Last Day of Leave
Well today is Michael's last day of leave before he catches his flight tomorrow at 8:30am to return back to Iraq. He's alittle different today and I can tell that he is fighting to not think about what is going to take place tomorrow. I am too. But it is hard when you know they are leaving and will be away from you for four to five more months. But at least when he comes home the next time he will be home hopefully for awhile. I'm hoping we have a whole year together before anything else happens. But you never know, it is the Army and they change their minds a lot.
Michael's mom and Mike left yesterday to head back down to KY. It was a better parting this time I think the knowledge of what to expect this time has help and know it is almost over as well. We went out to the Indy race track museum and took the bus tour around the track. It was OK and was time out of the house. Afterward we ate out at Cracker Barrel, and then went to drool at the Harley store that is at Southport road. Actually Michael and Mike drooled the kids and I just walked around. I was smart and put Lulu in the stroller there was no way I was going to let her be down in that store. I couldn't believe how expensive those bikes are.
Anyway we came home and Molly and Jason and Jason Jr. came and went out to eat with us for dinner. We went to Chilli's which I would have loved but my stomach hates me and I'm still waiting on my test results. They said maybe today I would know how the x-ray is but it may take awhile still for the blood work to come back. I hate that I will not know what is wrong until after Michael has left again. I'm hoping nothing serious is wrong because they would have allowed Michael to stay longer if there was something that they may want to do. But with my luck I have a feeling nothing is going to show and there will have to be more tests done. Well I'm going to get off here now and figure out what I'm going to do for lunch. Plus be a leach to Michael for the rest of the day. Write later, bye!
Michael's mom and Mike left yesterday to head back down to KY. It was a better parting this time I think the knowledge of what to expect this time has help and know it is almost over as well. We went out to the Indy race track museum and took the bus tour around the track. It was OK and was time out of the house. Afterward we ate out at Cracker Barrel, and then went to drool at the Harley store that is at Southport road. Actually Michael and Mike drooled the kids and I just walked around. I was smart and put Lulu in the stroller there was no way I was going to let her be down in that store. I couldn't believe how expensive those bikes are.
Anyway we came home and Molly and Jason and Jason Jr. came and went out to eat with us for dinner. We went to Chilli's which I would have loved but my stomach hates me and I'm still waiting on my test results. They said maybe today I would know how the x-ray is but it may take awhile still for the blood work to come back. I hate that I will not know what is wrong until after Michael has left again. I'm hoping nothing serious is wrong because they would have allowed Michael to stay longer if there was something that they may want to do. But with my luck I have a feeling nothing is going to show and there will have to be more tests done. Well I'm going to get off here now and figure out what I'm going to do for lunch. Plus be a leach to Michael for the rest of the day. Write later, bye!
Thursday, January 17, 2008
January 17, 2008
Well, Michael only has about five days left and then he leaves again for about 4-5 months. But thankfully after this he is home for awhile. This is a very comforting thought. It is probably easier this time since I know what to expect and it seems easier for him as well. But it's the saying good bye that is difficult. But that is something that only gets easier because you know what to expect. But you will still miss them the same amount. It is wonderful having him home and I am trying really hard not to think about him leaving. The kids are doing well and my stress level is down alot more.
Anyway I have already gone and had my blood work done on Monday. they said some will take about 10 days to get the results back on but there was one or two that would take longer. Tomorrow I am scheduled for my x-ray thing in the morning. hopefully though I will know something from that before Michael has to leave. It would be nice to know what is going on soon. I have enjoyed not being sick and pray that it will stay this way for awhile. Well I am going to go now and spend some time with my Michael. talk later, bye!
Anyway I have already gone and had my blood work done on Monday. they said some will take about 10 days to get the results back on but there was one or two that would take longer. Tomorrow I am scheduled for my x-ray thing in the morning. hopefully though I will know something from that before Michael has to leave. It would be nice to know what is going on soon. I have enjoyed not being sick and pray that it will stay this way for awhile. Well I am going to go now and spend some time with my Michael. talk later, bye!
Wednesday, January 09, 2008
January 9, 2008
So far so good. Things have been wonderful and I can feel my stress level lowering. Michael is home right now and things could not be better. We have been able to enjoy time with us and the kids right now and we will be going down to KY tomorrow so that Michael can visit with his family. Everyone is so excited to see him and I don't blame them. I am trying really hard to focus on the now and not the part that this is only a visit and that soon he will have to return back over seas. I am just thanking the Lord that this is a 15 day visit instead of like last time when it was only four days. I am very happy, and this is what we where both needing very badly.
Oh and I have my appointment with the specialist tomorrow instead of the 18th. I am hoping that this way if they are planning on doing anything that they can do it while Michael is here and I can have him to help take care of me if that is need be. Plus I know he will feel better if he knows what is wrong with me before he has to go back. I know I will because I am so tired of being sick. Like right now I am feeling alittle hungry but I should be starving since I have not eaten all day. But I don't and here lately thing make me sick if I eat them but I try to eat because I know I need to. I am down to like 105-106lbs. Which isn't bad I guess you know I am only 5' 2" and this is OK weight for me. I was 103 in high school so this isn't to bad.
Oh and I have my appointment with the specialist tomorrow instead of the 18th. I am hoping that this way if they are planning on doing anything that they can do it while Michael is here and I can have him to help take care of me if that is need be. Plus I know he will feel better if he knows what is wrong with me before he has to go back. I know I will because I am so tired of being sick. Like right now I am feeling alittle hungry but I should be starving since I have not eaten all day. But I don't and here lately thing make me sick if I eat them but I try to eat because I know I need to. I am down to like 105-106lbs. Which isn't bad I guess you know I am only 5' 2" and this is OK weight for me. I was 103 in high school so this isn't to bad.
Sunday, January 06, 2008
Germany
You will all be excited to know that Michael has called me to inform me that he is currently in Germany and will be arriving at the Indianapolis airport tomorrow afternoon. I have had such anxiety to today that I was unsure what to do. I have felt awful and have been unable to really eat anything or drink. I am making myself drink something but have almost given up on the idea of food. I want to eat but my body will not let me. It probably doesn't help that I have been sick here lately too. I feel like death warmed over. Molly even admitted that I looked like I have lost weight and even looked a little pasty. I'm sure all women out there would agree that looking like you have lost weight is not a bad thing but pasty is not good. Hopefully I will look and feel alot better before I pick my Michael up tomorrow. Oh I have felt awful, and I can not even begin to explain how I have felt and longed to be with Michael again. But thankfully I do not have to wait any longer than tomorrow for he will be here, YEAH!!!!!
Thank you Jesus for bringing my husband back home to me, even just for a visit. Thank you for keeping him safe and continue to watch over him. AMEN!
Thank you Jesus for bringing my husband back home to me, even just for a visit. Thank you for keeping him safe and continue to watch over him. AMEN!
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