Clinicals

Well I am sorry that I have not been posting regularly. But with myself starting my clinical and trying to get used to being gone and being away from the kids and Michael going back to work and trying to figure out everything, things have been a little hectic. On top of all of this poor Ma maw Nannie passed away Friday. The layout was this past Sunday and the funeral was Monday. Which I had to miss because it was my first day of clinical. Which are going OK but is making me neglect my blog and a few other things. But family and this is more important and I will try and post when I can. But it will not be regular for awhile. Well I need to go it's late and I am tired. Write when I can, bye. Oh by the way tomorrow is when I take my pregnancy test and I am so stressed out about it. I am so afraid it will be negative. But there is always next month, right?

May 4, 2008

Today Gabriel had his tonsils and adenoids removed at Children's Hospital in Cincy. I really like it there alot. Everyone is friendly and it is very oriented toward the children's needs. He did very well. He was given some medication before they took him back. They said it would be equivalent to drinking a few beers. It was funny. He kept telling me that I had two heads and had the hiccups really bad. He kept laughing and giggling. He was cute. HE did very well when he got the "sleepy gas" as they call it. He even got to pick a flavor to smell. He picked bubble gum. After what feels forever we where able to go back and see him. He was so pitiful, anyway we went to the bathroom and he asked me if they had taken his tonsils out. I told him yes. Unfortunately on the way home he got sick. Thankfully he didn't have anything in his stomach. He's sleeping right now taking it easy. Daddy has gone to picked up our other little one. It's funny how you really enjoy time alone but then you start thinking about how much you miss them. Love my babies

May 28, 2008

Well today is the day that Gabriel goes for his consultation about having his tonsils removed. Which I have opted to stay home to allow Lydia to have a nap and I let Michael take Scooter instead. Which I am ok with right now since it is not the actual procedure which I will definitely be there for. But I'm glad this gives Michael and Gabriel some alone time for guy stuff and I can do my homework for school in quite and Lydia can nap. Which is really good because she can get really cranky ad fast.

Things are going well. The Indy 500 race was ok except I kept having potty problems and my nerves where all over the place. If it wasn't or that then I would be able to really enjoy myself. It was ok until it was time to go home. I won't say what happened other than it involved one of Michael's uncles and for once it was not one from the Jenkins's side of the family. I was asked not to say anything so I will not. Just say goodness it got edgy.

Real quick before I go today is also my mother's birthday and I believe that she is turning 43. She is due back home on the 30th and John is very excited to have her home. Along with everyone else. Well I need to go and get back to my home work I'll write more later. Bye.

May 20, 2008

I am currently in my last week of my radiography class and I am praying that I pass it. I could really care less about the class. But since I have to take it, then I'm concerned about it. But I could care less, this does not intrigued me one bit. But oh well. Michael has been doing really well since I picked him up last Friday. We are of course still attending the big thing on Thursday since I is meant for Michael and all of his buddies and yes we are still going to the Indy 500 this weekend as well. I' very excited and will write more later. Well I need to go I'm stalling because I really don't won't to work on my chapter 12 assignment. Later!

Uncle Gary

Tuesday started of wonderfully. Michael called me and we were able to talk for quite along time. Well, at least long for what we are used too. Any way, later on in the day Casey called me. He sounded really down and I could tell something was wrong. I was afraid he was calling to tell me that Mawmaw Nannie had passed away. Instead he told me that Uncle Gary had died. I couldn't believe it. I mean he hadn't been feeling bad or sick. Casey said that Aunt Genie was home with him an that he had had a heart attack while he was out working in the barn. See he had Dairy cows and worked really hard with them. I just can't believe it. I mean the first time we took Gabriel fishing was out to Uncle Gary's. We always went out there to fish. We would of course stop and talk for a little bit when we went. I was so looking forward to taking Lydia out there for her first time fishing this summer and to see Gary and Genie. Especially since Michael will be home too. The sad thing is Michael doesn't know. I tried to call the red cross to see if they would get the message to him but they said no. Pretty much has to be parent, wife, or child only. I think that is stupid. I mean I wasn't asking for him to come home just tell him what happened. Especially since this was so sudden. Well I need to go. I'm hoping Michael calls so I can tell him before the layout which I have a feeling will be Friday or Saturday. I still haven't heard anything yet. I'll write more later. Oh yes, only 15 more days to go before Michael is finally home, yeah!

May 5, 2008

I had a busy day today. I first started of my day by taking Gabriel to the Dr. I was afraid he had strep-throat. Thankfully he didn't, but they are referring us to the ENT at children's. Apparently we have waited long enough and his tonsils are really big. They always have been but he has started to snore now and they can later on interfere with breathing and swallowing. So we have to wait and see what they officially decide when we go. Then the kids and I headed over to Wells Fargo there in Dry Ridge to start working on our paper work for our VA loan and finding a home. After that we then were on our way to Wally world to get some groceries. Followed by filling up the jeep at shell dying over gas prices and then McDonald's.

On the way home Michael called. But thanks to the signal and my crappy phone I lost him. Mike is going to leave me his phone, Michael said he would call me tomorrow thankfully. He is supposed to leave this week for the half way point. Then home. US soil. He's dying to see green, it's already hot over there and they moved them into tents so there replacements could have there rooms. I'm so excited for him to be home but when I start to think about it all I get nervous and uneasy. What if things are different? Then what? I'm sure things will be good but I'm still nervous. Well it's late I need to head to bed. Later!

Box from Iraq

Today I received Michael's foot locker from Iraq. Which thankfully it is starting to make all this real. He is coming home soon! This month actually! I can't believe it has already been a year since he left. Thank God he's coming home to me soon! I opened the box which he told me to go ahead and do. I just never though I was going to get so emotional. But he had his stuff in there an I knew that the stuff was just recently there with him and he out his blanket in there. Which I just stood there and held it for a long time with my eyes closed. Trying to remember how he felt and smelled. It's funny how you try to remember things and you realize that you forget some of the little things. But thankfully they all come back as soon as you are together again. I can't wait to feel him pressed up against me again. We don't even have to be doing anything just hugging and I'll be thrilled. I keep telling myself that I won't cry. But there is a part of me that thinks I will since I've tried really hard not to this whole entire time that he has been gone.

But when he's home I can put my guard down because he is finally home and I don't have to worry any more about him getting hit by an IED. Or anything else equally awful. But I am alittle weary because he has been gone for so long and things change alot in a year. I mean my feelings for him haven't.I love him more now than ever. But it seems alittle weird. I hope that this is normal. We have one more FRG meeting coming up on the 18th of this month and I am defiantly going. I want to know everything I can before he gets home. Well gotta go it's late and I'll write more later. Bye!

Sunday 27, 2008

Yesterday was Jeena, Josh, Jake, and Jacksons birthday party over at the Jenkins's. They had the parties at Uncle Kelly's house. It was pretty good. Jeena turned 3, Josh and Jake 1 and Jackson 10. I also went over to see Uncle Stacey since he had come back home from UC. He had alittle above his knee amputated. But he seems in good spirits but still alittle swollen. I'm in the process of trying to find him some orthotic socks but I don't know his measurments so it is proven to be a challenge. But I'm going to try and go over one day and see what he has and doesn't and go from there. I haven't heard from Michael yet but maybe tomorrow. I'm doing much better with the gap in time since I know it is about less than a month until I see him again. This time he stays home and I'm so excited. Well I need to go write later bye.

One month left

I only have one month left until Michael is finally back home with us and I can't wait. This waiting is driving me nuts and I welcome any kind of distracting. I am so glad that I am here with Michael's parents, it is really helping the time to go bye. Plus the closer it gets to Michael coming home the more I realize also how much time there is left before I start my clinical and I am done with my school. Soon I will be a medical assistant. I am so surprised with myself as I never really found myself actually going to school for a career. I figured I would just graduate from high school and start working somewhere. But now I am actually thinking about some day going all the way to be coming a full fledged RN. Won't that be something. Especially since neither of my parents finished college or some kind of secondary schooling. Or my brother or sister (At least so far). I still thing some day I will travel to another country to help. Well I gotta go things get busy and I will try and write when ever I can. Bye for now!

April 18, 2008

As every one is well aware of by now is that there was an earth quake that struck parts of the mid eastern part of the USA. I live in KY and thus was not as hard. But It accrued at around 5:30am. I was of course asleep and it took me a second to realize what was going on. To be honest it didn't get worse so when it stopped I laid there for a second and then went back to sleep. I mean there was nothing else to do plus I had to get up in a little bit to get Gabriel ready for school. But any way Sorry it's been a little bit since I last wrote anything but a lot is involved when you have to relocate. I should know, I mean I did start my life out in this manner. But it's made me into who I am today and I wouldn't change it. I love Michael my kids and I actually have some great in-laws. Well we are still working on the one mother-in-law. But maybe Lord willing it can all come about. I just pray she will start treating her husband nicer. But he's a big boy and capable of making his own decisions. Well it's late I need to get some sleep. I'll try and write more later on. BYE!

Allergies

Today I took Lydia to the Dr because I was worried she was starting to get a sinus infection. This is usually the time we have to deal with allergies. Poor thing woke up and sounded like she swallowed a whole bunch of frogs. I got her a appointment at 11am with Dr Dubois. He so nicely informed me that she has the beginning part of a sinus infection, strep throat, and bronchitis. Wonderful right?! He prescribed her an antibiotic. Then which he should have done last summer put her on a breathing machine. She is to have breathing treatments for her cough and whenever she she wheezes or seems to have a hard time breathing. Every though something was wrong last summer and I did too, But I understand why he wanted to wait to see if she would out grow it. You know give her another year. But no, she has too much of a family history with bronchitis and allergies that I had a feeling we would have problems. It's just hard to know when she is sick because she never runs a fever or coughs until she is really bad. Where as Gabriel doesn't really eat or play or anything. He acts pitiful. Lulu keeps playing and eating and by the time I get any indication that something might be wrong she's usually really bad. She I had a feeling she was worse than she appeared. Well I write later and write down how she did with her first treatment and everything.

May 6, 2008

Well I have been very busy this week. It's been nice to come down and I wish that the kids and I were just staying and didn't have to go back to Indiana. But I still have things to pack and thankfully only have three weeks to get it all done in. Then we will be on our way to KY and shortly after Thank the Lord Michael will be home. I'm so excited and pray time goes by very quickly now. I also pray that the Lord let's it be hopefully never but along time before he is deployed again. But we are also currently in the process of looking for our won home. It's so nice that we are able to do a VA loan. There is a house that I have found that I really like but have to wait and see. Well just wanted to write a quick something. Write more when I can, bye for now!

March 31, 2008

It's been a few days since I have last heard from Michael. I last talked with him on wed. He told me he would call me back the next day and it is now Sunday night and still nothing. Usually if he says he'll talk to me the next day and goes one day without then I'll chalk it up to the Internet not working or something like that. I mean it's not like we haven't gone a long time without talking but he will at least tell me if he has a mission coming up or something but I honestly have no idea what is going on and it is really bothering me. I mean I always know at least kinda what's going on and now nothing. I'm hoping he's at that school they talked about sending him to and he just was unable to talk with me before he left and there is no Internet there. But he said he was getting a phone card. I don't know I need to chill and try and relax. I mean as long as I don't hear anything then it's ok. It's just you always wondering if I might get the call. The one all wives of soldiers dread. It's second to a car coming to the house. I pray every day and night fro him and will even when he gets home. I hope I hear from him soon. Please Lord watch over and protect him.

March 27, 2008

Well it's been a little bit since I last wrote and let me say alot has been happening. First of all spring break for myself has been this week. Next week is Gabriel's spring break and we are going down to KY. Apparently we are moving now back down there. Which I have no problem with. I'm actually kinda excited. Except that I have to tell Molly and Jason. Which I really don't want too. But of course I have too. But to be honest we will more than likely see them as much as I do now. But anyway I have alot to do and not a whole lot of time. This week coming up I have to look for a clinical site. Get Gabriel enrolled at Northern Elm. Help Chris work around the house in preparation of Michael coming home and his party. Which we are having June 7. I'm getting very excited. I also though have to do my homework while I am down there, which stinks. But I don't have much of school left anyway and it's getting close to time for me to start my clinical. I am hoping I can find a DR. office I can do it at in either, Dry Ridge, Williamstown, or even Crittendon. But if all else fails I can drive to Lexington and do them there because my school has already set up a site there. Well I need to go I have alot to do. I'll try to continue and write when I can. Bye for now.

The kids and the Rats

Here's Gabriel and Miss Remy. I was very surprised the first time Gabriel let her climb on him. But I think I did a good job in picking out the perfect pet for Him. He really like the rats and thankfully Remy is very friendly and patient with the kids. Now Princess is more like Miss Kitty. My sister's pet cat. Her name (Princess) suites her very well.

This is Miss Remy that Lydia is playing with. She's being very gentle here. She's not always gentle, this is because she tends to get very excited about our new family pets. Plus she's two! Remy is good with her though. Princess is too skittish for the kids. I tend to spend more one on one time with her so that she will continue to get used to being held. Eventually I'm hoping she'll feel better with the kids.

Readability

A friend of mine Chad Doerr Found a website that checks your blog readability. HE scored at and elementary level, as did I. I did some digging and found out why that was. Apparently it means that our blogs are safe for children to read because we do not exploit anything sexual or inappropriate for young readers. Which I found to be very refreshing. I mean how many people out that can say that in there daily life (which I believe is what our blogs reflect) we have morally health persona's. We don't need to live our lives with inappropriate thoughts or actions. Very wholesome and clean. I really like that.

Miss Rimey and Princess Pictures

The girls love to crawl on me and the kids and they love to sit on your shoulders. They are around 2 months old right now.

This is the girls home. They seem to really like it and the kids love that they can see them so easily. They love the different levels.

This is Miss Remy. She is solid blue/gray and has black eyes. She is very friendly and likes to explore alot. She is more active than Princess.

This is Princess as you can see, she is gray/blue and white with black eyes. She has a hood as they call it. Becuase he color goes all the way down her back. She is not as out going as Miss Remy is.

This is Princess and Miss Remy. Remy is on the right and Princess on the left. They love to sit on your soulders. Miss Remy likes to hide in my hair so I usually put it up.

Miss Rimey and Princess

Well we now have two pets. After all this time I kept saying I didn't want any pets until we had a home because I was afraid it would just add to my stress. How wrong I was. I can't believe I forgot how relaxing it is to actually have pets. I love animals and I have really missed them. I have alwyas wanted to share my love of animals with my children. I loved thinking about how they would help to take care of them and to see the joy light up on their little faces as the get to take care of them and love them. Lydia most deffiently has my love of all animals. Scooter on the other hand is not loving with all animals on account some scare him. But he is doing better. That's all I can ask. Anyway, our new pets are rats! Yes you heard me right and they are so cute and loving. Gabriel named one Remy after the movie Ratatouille. But I had to tell him that Remy is a girl. So he said Miss Remy. I said that fine but we call her mainly Remy. Now the other one Lulu named and she is called princess, of course! Below is a list of their body type and so on:

Princess
Color: Hood is dark chocolate and hind is white
Body Type: Standard
Markings: Hooded
Coat: Smooth

Remy
Color: Solid Chocolate
Body Type: Standard
Markings: None
Caot: Smooth

I have always had pet hampsters but never rats. I still love hampsters but I think if I had to choose from now on I would get only rats. Thankfully they live a little longer than hampsters and they are really affectionet and smart. I hope Michael likes them when he comes home. I think he will. Well gotta go write more later, bye.

March 15, 2008

Well everything went ok. As far as mom told me and I remember. Wed. was when I had to get ready for the procedure. Thankfully it wasn't as bad as I thought it was going to be. I figured I would have pain and discomfort. But I just had to potty. Anyway the only thing I remember that was alarming about it all was when they where giving me the the stuff to make me sleep my heart rate jumped up really high like almost 160. But it went back down so they gave me the rest and went on. Then mom said I woke up and was saying about of stuff. Like I was worrying about whether or not Michael's mom would like the gift the kids and I sent her and stuff like that. But Everything went ok and apparently I have IBS. Which I kinda figured I had. I'll know more when I go back in April. Well I need to go now oh yeah on more thing. The kids and I got a pet for the family. A pet rat. Gabriel named her Remy but it's Miss Remy since she's a girl. Well gotta go write more later bye.

The Truth, Finally part 2

Oh I feel awful. I reread what I wrote and I sound like such a baby and so selfish. I mean Michael has sacrificed alot. He left Lydia when she was only four months old. Came back when she was eight and a half months old. Then he left when she was 18 months old and is still gone. I mean he's lost alot of time with her and Gabriel too. It was wrong of me to say so many bad things about him and how he feels. It wasn't fair of me to say those things. Just because I was upset didn't give me the right and I want to say that I am sorry. He has been very good to us. The Army has been good to us. KY is full of some unpleasant memories. I think Michael is Army, even if he is hesitant to say so. I think he is more than he may realize. Which is not a bad thing. I've just been dwelling on all the negative things and I was wrong. There are good things and I just need to see those. Lord help me to see those. I pray every day asking what to do. Every answer is to trust Michael, is the one thing I have yet to fully give into. I want to but if I tell him something like this is up to him he just says no it's up to us both. Then around and around we go. I don't know what to do. I love him I always have and will always do. Just now what do I do?

Maybe he's right and we need to decide to together. But I don't want to! Why do I have to. I'm tired and I'm afraid I may end up keeping him from doing something that he needs to do. What if he regrets it like my father regrets getting out. Michael can become great. What if my feelings blind me? My fear blinds me? Or my stubborn pride brings me to make the wrong decision because I'm scared? Then what do we do? I'm afraid I will be the down fall. I'm afraid what I choose and say will be wrong and I know if I say, get out he will, or stay he will. I just don't want to do that.

Lord please help us. We are so young and are so new to the world still and our family. We want to do what is right in your eyes. We need your strength and courage to see the answers whatever they maybe. Thank you heavenly father for all that you do. Be with us and guide us in all things. Amen!

Look I'll write more later and let you know how things go. Until then later!